I'm WIRED!!! 

Those damn energy drinks. you know. 

Anyways I've been meaning to post this because it is just too good.  This quote comes from a friend and it goes something like this:

"People walk through life trying to 'find themselves'.  But self isn't something one finds, but what one creates."

And so this quote was on a bathroom stall in a jail.  And I love it. 

The End

Daylight is approaching and I have yet to sleep.  Ah, the beauty of insomnia.  It finds you when you do not need it, and when you do, it is no where to be found.  Today is my last day in Austin, a year gone by, a year to look back on, a year forgotten.  I am going to miss my friends but I know I will be back in no time, so I'm not too bitter about it.  What does Tyler hold for me this summer?  I hope I fullfill everything I want to this summer and not waste it.  5days...    5days...   5days...  the day my father left this world 4years ago.  I have a song I'm listening to on repeat it's amazing...here are the lyrics:

I was on your porch, the smoke sank into my skin so i came inside to be with you and we talked all night, about everything
We could imagine cause come the morning ill be gone and as our eyes start to close i turn to you and i let you know that i
Love you well my dad was sick and my mom she cared for him her love it nursed him back to life and me i ran, i couldnt even
Look at him for fear id have to say goodbye and as i start to leave he grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me whats left
To lose, youve done enough and if you fail well then you fail but not to us cause these last three years, i know theyve been
Hard but now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone so now here i sit, in a hotel off of
Sunset my thoughts bounce off of sams guitar and thats the way its been, ever since we were kids but now, now weve got
Something to prove and i, i can see there eyes but tell me something, can they see mine cause whats left to lose, ive done
Enough and if i fail well then i fail but i gave it a shot and these last three years, i know theyve been hard but now its
Time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone i was on your porch last nite, the smoke it sank into my
Skin

Drinking is the way we are brought together to hide the reality of our lonely lives. 

As I finished the last drop of my monster, the sun shining brightly into my room, I decided, its time for an update.  Since the majority of my site swallows my former relationship with Melissa, I want to try something else.  First of all, thanks to Sabrina with her intriguing posts that influenced me to start this xanga thing again.  Its been 5 months and much has happened in my life, although I'm confused as to what to share on here. I don't like getting too personal, afterall its a website.  My relationship life is somewhat evolving, I sense something great happening soon, I have tried to be as paitent as possible...but that can be somewhat hard with everyone around me consumed in love.  So for this post, I will enlighten you with quotes from some of my favorite bands that I'm sure all of you can relate to...  of course they are all relationship related so have fun!!!

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me

Well I have been happy the past couple days
Just thinking of the women who’ve taken your place
And every night I think I certaintly won't ever sleep sober or alone
And then suddenly it occurs to me
I've slept alone before you
And so I pour myself the stiffest drink my stomach can stand
And convince myself to lay back down again

Stop burning bridges and drive off of them
So I can forget about you

and I tell myself,"Well Kel,
It's better to have lost love
then paint a smile and pretend"

So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or simple song of hope

Are we growing up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears, put them on ice
Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

Now I'm staring at the sun, waiting for it to explode. Because a day is gonna come,
don't know when but it will come and then we will finally know the way out of here.

I can't think of many other quotes at the moment, due largely to the fact that I get stuck on one band for a significant amount of time, so other lovely quotes I will have to add later.

Enjoy!

I want my pickle back!

She said she was mine

completely

forever